BEDA: Day 7: American Idol

With today being Tuesday, if you live in America and know anything about anything you would know that Tuesday means American Idol! This season I actually know someone on Idol! Matt Giraud is a long time family friend. He is also my 8 month old baby sister's godfather. It is so amazing to know someone on Idol because we get to go out to Wild Bull (the sister bar to where Matt works, Monaco Bay) every Tuesday. At the watch party, we get to play American Idol bingo, which is simply having a piece of paper with different quotes that the jugdes are known for saying; so, it's extremely easy. Tonight we got a very special prize that might have a chance to win...Kelly Clarkson tickets!!! I really hope I win because I want to see her in concert so bad! I absolutely love her. I even got Tiffany and Alyssa to enter for it so if they won then they could give my the tickets sonce niether of them care for Kelly. I have a pretty good chance of winning; I entered myself, my sister, my parents, and Tiff and Lyss. So, I really hope that one of us is chosen. That's pretty much all for today. DFTBA

BEDA: Day 6: Sorry I'm late -_-

It is now 2 am on April 7th meaning that this blog is officially LATE! Really sorry about this but I was just having an extremely bad day and if you follow me on twitter than you already know this whole story. I am not going to go into any details because it's not really important and I have just given up on caring about it any more. The jist of it is that my dad is a jerk and I hate him. So, there you go. I don't really have much to talk about in this blog but then again what else is new. If you have any suggestions and/or requests let me know in the comments. I know that I keep promising a Twilight party blog but I haven't had time to do it just yet. Most likely tomorrow or Thursday since I will be at school pretty much all day. Wednesday may be another late blog day since I probably won't be online at all which really sucks because all of my friends are online and I need to talk to them all so I don't go insane. The reason I will be gone on Wednesday is because I will be home all day and really do not need to give yet another reason for my dad to chew my head off and bitch. That's pretty much all for today kids! DFTBA!

BEDA: Day 5: I really need to move out

I am not really sure how I should begin this blog but today has been shit so far. And that is really sad since it is only 2:36 and I woke up about an hour ago. First, off my father came in and started bitching at my sister for not cleaning, even though she was cleaning. He then went on to say that no is allowed to eat unless we clean first, so therefore if we want to eat three times a day then we have to clean three times a day. After awhile of him bitching my sister started crying and my father then said how he wished he never had children.

Honestly, I wish he never had children either. He is a shitty father, doesn't care about anyone except himself, and could care even less about doing anything. My father is an asshole, and will always be an asshole, there is no way around it.

My mom was going to divorse him about 2 years ago but then decided that she was going to wait for Bri to graduate from high school. But that was before she got pregnant. Now her plan is to wait until Kenzie graduates from high school. Kenzie is 8 months old. I really hate my mom for doing this because I don't what Kenzie going through the same shit that Bri and I had to go through. I believe that if you are a parent and in a shitty relationship then you need to get out for the kids sake, it shouldn't matter what the hell you think; the children need to come first.

What I think is hilarious about my father is that he eats maybe 6 or 7 times a day meaing that he should be cleaning 6 or 7 times a day...guess what? He doesn't. We are lucky if he cleans once a week. And, another great thing of his little "rule" is that parents are supposed to give their children three things, clothing, shelter, and food. Otherwise it is considered child abuse. I have never said this to anyone before but I really want to get it out because I am sick and tired of holding it in...I do honestly believe that my father abuses Bri, my mother, and myself. Not like physical abuse, but emotional and mental abuse. I believe this because whenever he is having a shitty day or something doesn't go exactly as he planned it to, he will bitch at us for usually something we had no control over...and it is usually aimed at me. I could type so many different times that I have been yelled at, put down, called stupid, anything but I am positive that it would be as long as 3 of yesterday's post, just that alone.

I really need to move out because living here I am seriously afraid that it will kill me one day. It is way too stressful for me here and I am really getting tired of it. I do all that I fucking can and the only reason why my dad bitches at us so much is because his mother (bless her soul, and I loved her but still) cleaned up after him his ENTIRE life. He never had to clean his room, take care of his dishes after he was done eating, do chores, nothing. His mother did everything for him. I am pretty sure that because of this reason that he looks down on women and thinks that they are the only ones that can do anything.

I am really sorry for the emoness of this blog but I really just needed to get it out. DFTBA

BEDA: Day 4: Shitty Time with Friends

As you all will know if you read my last post (sorry for the shortness of it I didn't want to type much since Ali was looking over my shoulder the entire time) that I went to my friend's house to stay the night. I was really fun hanging out with Tiffany and Alyssa but then Ali and her little brother Zach came over and all hell broke loose...well, for me at least. I am not really sure why I am friends with all of these people because we have basically none of the same interests. I like Twilight, they think it's a joke. They like manga, I think it's crap. They like video games, I like twitter. And, in this case opposites most certainly DO NOT attract. Well, except for Alyssa, I like her just fine.

When Ali and Zach first got there it was fine, Ali and I were playing with Renaldo (Tiffany's ferret) and Zach was playing video games with Alyssa. Alyssa left with Tiffany to go take Jacob home (one of Zach's friends that couldn't stay the night), that's when it started. With only Ali, Zach, and I at Alyssa's one-bedroom appartment, and I, being the only one who like Twilight, the Twilight bashing began. I have no idea why they started it maybe because I started talking about it, I don't know. All I did was say that I liked Twilight and was showing off my merchandise...that was it. I was not trying to get them to like Twilight and I was not trying to get them to talk about it...I just wanted it out there that I liked it so maybe they wouldn't bash it...well, so much for that plan. Ali started going all off about why Twilight sucked (vampires weren't supposed to sparkle, they weren't supposed to drink animal blood...). Zach then asked me if I read manga, I said no because it doesn't catch my interest. He immediately shot back with that's why you like Twilight then, because you haven't read and thing good. I'm sorry but no, I like Twilight because it gives me hope that one day I will find my "Edward" if you will, and that not all men are total douche bags. I like Twilight because it is a good read and Stephenie has a way of making you love her characters that very few authors can achieve.
I decided at this point that I didn't want to hear them bitching anymore so I got online and started to read The Puppet Master. I guess I shouldn't have because this is when Ali came down and tried distracting me with the fanfics that she likes and the ones that she had written. I didn't care since most of them were all manga crap and it just doesn't catch my interest. But, I let her try and distract me. She made me read a short Harry Potter one that I just kind of skimmed because I really didn't want to read anything but my Twilight fanfic. When I got done with the Harry Potter fanfic she tried to get me to play some random writing game and I was like I know that's my major and all but really I just don't care or want to for that matter. I went back to twitter and posted a new tweet...I don't remember what it said but I was really upset that Ali wouldn't leave so I could bitch about her. This is when she wrote the letter...

I love (fan) fictions. I love the heart-pounding action of a fight, or the gut-wrenching sorrowof a beloved character being killed. These emotions are neither faked or imitated. The impact of decisions are not lost on one, even just as a 3rd person veiwer.
However
There comes a time when one must put aside their books for awhile and live. To go outside and stare at the sky, imagining your own stories. To put a pencil to paper and write your thoughts. To go out and talk to people.
Even the most vivid story in the world cannot prepare one for the complexities of human interactions. Body language, tone, eyes, pattern of speech...
They can be described in a story, but only through experience can one learn to interact with people
Even if it is cutting back on the reading by 15 minutes, enough to drive to the nearest wal-mart and back. Humans are naturally social creatures, and denying yourself this part of life will destroy you slowly, no matter how many realites you can read yourself into.

Ok, first issue with this: what does it matter to her if I spend all of my free time reading? It's not her life...it's not hurting her any.
Second issue: I don't have any good enough friends that I can just call up at any time of the day and say "hey let's hang out." All of the friends that I do have either don't like me enough to do that or I don't know them well enough to hang out with.
Third and final issue: the reason why I read so much is so that I can have a sense of friends. This is also the reason why I am online so much...all of my close friends are online and therefore I cannot call them up and go hang out whenever I want to...they live in different states and even different countries. This is also why I love Twilight so much, it has introduced me to so many people that I would have never met if I hadn't read the beloved series. I would have never started watching Team Twilighter, and never met Emy and Katie. I would have never met B or Kim, I would have never experienced the thrill of watching a Kaleb Nation blogtv and finding out what his newest contest would consist of. I would have never started my own Twilight collab channel and therefore never met Kurtis, Jenna, Marta, Emily, Jessie, Nora, and all the others who auditioned or even thought about auditioning. I would have also never started my Twilight Family.
Even though Ali doesn't think that people should just sit on the computer and not have a life, I believe that I ahve a very enriched life and love all of the people in it. They have gotten me through so much and for that I am etternally grateful, I will never forget my Twilight friends and I hope to one day meet every one of them.
Sorry for the lengthiness of this post, it makes up for yesterday's lame one! Love everyone, DFTBA! <3

BEDA: Day 3: At Alyssa's

Day 3 has been fairly uneventful so far...right now I am sitting at my friend's house and just had pizza for dinner. This blog today is going to be pretty boring since I didn't really do much today. I will try to get my Twilight party blog up tomorrow but not completely sure about that. I might go back later and u[date this a little more but right now I am too tired to think of anything creative to write. So, DFTBA. <3

BEDA: Day 2: Fanfic Recommendation

So, day 2 is here and almost done with but I was reading fanfiction all day and was absolutely absorbed in it. It is seriously the best fanfiction I have ever read...well, it's the only fanfiction I have ever read! It is a Twilight fanfic and if you love the books, I totally recommend reading it. It's about this girl named Cammy who loves the Twilight Saga and has an aunt and uncle who just so happen to live in Forks, WA, the main headquaters of all the fictional action. Her aunt and uncle ask her to come stay in Forks for her junior year of high school to house sit for them since they are away quite a bit. She decides that it would be a good experience to stay there so she could learn how to live by and take care of herself...not to mention that she would be able to see the actual place that Stephenie based the book series on. Her first day of school seemed to be going normally until she got to Engilsh. It just so happens that she has a class with Jasper Hale...yes, the real Jasper! She faints and has to be taken to the hospital, here she meets Carlisle. She begins to realize that the characters that she had only thought were fictional actually existed! The next day at school she is texting her best friend, Donna, who still lives in Southern California and got her to read the Twilight books, about the previous day's activities. Donna began asking her what Twilight was and why Cammy had thought she had read it, Donna had never heard of the beloved series. When Cammy got home she immediately searched for all things Twilight...Stephenie Meyer, Edward Cullen, even Twilight itself, but nothing. It seems as though the it has disappeared completely. Cammy, however, still has her copy of the books (Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse) and so now has the responsiblity to make sure that everything goes as planned in the story. But, all is not as easy as it seems.

That is all that I am going to tell you about the fanfic because I don't want to give any key information out to those who would like to read this and not be spoiled. I am completely in love with this story and have already gotten two others hooked on it (Ashley from Team Twilighter and my friend Kim). The link is hooked onto the title! Enjoy!

<3 Josie much love! DFTBA!

BEDA: Day 1

Hey everyone! If you don't already know, BEDA stands for Blog Every Day in April. Maureen Johnson started it and I decided that I would try it also.

Not much is going on today, other than the fact that it is April 1st aka April Fools Day, which just happens to be my least favourite day of the year. I hate it because I am the most gulliable person ever. Although I tend to steer away from trusting what anyone says on this day. I am very glad that I don't have school on Wednesdays because I don't have to worry about being pranked. The only prank that I have encountered today was that of our beloved Youtube. The creators of Youtube decided that it would be fun to make all of the videos in your subscription box to be upsidedown when you clicked on them to view. It sucks!

In my life, I have had a pretty good time since my last post. I have officially named my collab channel...Twerdfighters! I thought of this a few nights ago while laying in bed around 2 am not being able to sleep. It stands for Twilight Nerdfighters! I ablsolutely love the vlogbrothers so I am extremely glad that I thought of this name for my channel. Not much else has happened since my last post. Until next time, DFTBA! <3 you guys! Josie