The Rough Plot of the Book

So the basic plot is going to be that Karson, the main character, gets pissed at her parents for going on vacation without her. She decides that since they get to have fun, so should she; so she takes off for France. In Paris, she meets Jack. Jack is a vampire. They spend a few days together, and after awile they "fall in love." Jack tells Karson that he is a vampire and that he loves her and wants to be with her forever. She tells him that she wants the same thing, he turns her into a vampire (which is going to be the scene from the preface). This seems like it would be perfect and that they will be the next Bella and Edward, but all good books need an epic twist, the next morning, Jack leaves Karson all alone in their Paris hotel room. She is now a vampire and has no idea what to do. She finds herself thirsty as all vampires do but she tries to ignore it. She turns on the tv and theres a news story on this person who says that vampires are real and that he has invented an antidote to vampirism. The reporter obviously thinks he's insane but doesn't bring it up. The guy then goes on to say that he was once a vampire but he used the antidote and has returned to his human state. Karson immediatly decides to find this guy. Along the way she meets Issac, another vampire. Karson tells Issac of her issue and that she is trying to find the antidote guy. He goes along with her even though he doesn't want to be a human again. They end up falling in love, and once they find the guy, Karson has to decide if she wants to be human again to be with her family or stay a vampire with her one true love.

That is just the rough plot. I came up with it while we were driving to the store. I haven't worked all of the bugs quite yet but most books don't this early. lol

My book preface

Lying there, on a bed of downy feathers and memory foam mattresses, him towering over my weak, nearly lifeless body. His lips leaving my neck where his teeth had just left their small puncture wounds, a slight trickle of blood, slowly running down, both my neck and his mouth. The edges of his lips raise up in a thoughtful smile. I almost reach unconsciousness, not wanting to drift and let the darkness take me away from his beautiful face. His finger raises up to touch my face and finally reaching their resting place on my lips. “Shh, it will all be fine in the morning,” he whispered softly. My eyes close but I yet again jerk them back open; his hands reach up and close my eye lids. I finally give into the darkness, my only hope, to see his face once more after the darkness engulfs me.

In the comments, please give feedback. I need to hear what yall think, so that it gives me an idea of how the public will react to it if it ever does get published. Thanks!

Life

Answer me this, why do people always feel the need to lead you on and then break your heart? Do people get enjoyment from others hurt and suffering? Or maybe they are just oblivious to the way you may feel even though everyone else can clearly see it. These are some of the reasons why I am so tired of being single. I am tired of the hurt of falling for someone when they clearly don't fall back. I am tired of people making you think that you actually have a chance with them and then rip every shred of hope out from under you. But, most of all, I am tired of the lies.

There will always be those who love and those who are idiots and don't understand anything. Those who will believe others lies and the liars themselves. It's not fun but I guess we will all just have to deal with what life gives us and trust it. It may suck but we must realize that everything WILL work out in the end, we just have to give it time.

Reading back through this post I have noticed something: it started with me complaining about my life and went all the way to advise about life. But, isn't that a good thing? That in just a few short sentences I have made a change in how I feel and my thought processes. I still wish that I had a boyfriend that I knew wouldn't hurt me and never leave me but in the same sense it will work out. No one knows when or even if it will but that's part of life. The wait. It may not be the best part, it's actually one of the worst, no one likes to wait but it's something that everyone has to face. I am probably one of the most impatient people ever but we all will get our happy ending eventually; we just have to go through a few obstacles to get there.

Day 22: Another Fangirly Post about Kaleb Nation

On Saturday, April 18, 2009, Kaleb Nation's first novel entitled Bran Hambric: The Farfield Curse, opened for presales on amazon.com. It started off in the top 100,000 in sales (which, according to Kaleb, is extremely good considering he is a new author, the amazon website doesn't even have the cover art up yet, and for it just being put up THAT day). He told us at that day's blogtv that he didn't want us to order the book until one specific day in May (the month the book was originally supposed to open for presales) so that his ranking would get really high. But, apparently, some didn't listen; because in a matter of 3 days Kaleb's book went from being ranked over 100,000 to being just above 14,000! He posted a blog on twilightguy.com, on April 21, 2009, that if he got under 1,000 before 10pm CST time that he would do a blogtv. Well, we listened! In a matter of 45 minutes, we got Kaleb's book from the 12,000 that he was at right after he posted the blog, all the way up to around 685. So, of course he went live.

This is when I started to have the second best day of my life:

When he first started the blogtv he asked who could see him. I immediately said, "I can see you!" He then said, "MrsJasperHale, can see me," along with a few other names (but who cares about them anyway lol ^_^). Later in the show he went to go check his @replies on twitter. I thought that this would be a good time to ask him if he had sent out my cover art proof yet. He read the twitter; he was all no, MrsJasperHale it's still sitting here but I am sending it out tomorrow (today). I twittered him back saying thanks and asking how long it should take. He, again, answered my twitter! He said that it should be here in about a week (so about a week from today I will be one very happy girl!!). I decided to be the polite person that I am and twitter him once again saying thanks and also saying that I was going to preorder two copies of his book, one to read and one for him to sign (if you think that's bad my friend Nora, who is on my collab channel on youtube, told him that her principal ordered 140 copies!! and a lot of teachers were ordering 20-40 copies for their classes). He read the twitter and laughed (he has such an adorable laugh lol) and said thanks for preodering my book, MrsJasperHale.

I pretty much fangirled right then, I had already gotten around 5 or 6 shout outs from the god that is Kaleb Nation! So, yet again, I twittered him, this time saying that he had just made my life and that I had gotten about 5 or 6 shout outs and was basically going to die from the happiness. He again laughed and was all well here comes number 7! I am pretty sure that I did actually die...and it took pretty much all the will power that I don't have to not scream at the top of my lungs much as I did when I won the cover art proof (my parents and my sisters were all sleeping and I don't think they would've liked it much ^_^).

Also, today, I did go and preoder Kaleb's book (I only ordered one today but plan to order the other soon). I also preodered the Twilight Saga Official Guide that is scheduled to come out just 21 days after Kaleb's book! And, I offically have bought all of the Twilight books! I ordered the box set of all four books in hardcover. Those should be here, according to the amazon tracker, by April 27th. So, I am super pumped about that!

Oh and, since today is Wednesday, American Idol is on. Last week they saved Matt (yay!! So happy even though I can't wait to see him again, I would rather see him on tv!!), so this week TWO people had to go home. Luckily, Matt was safe again, and wasn't even in the bottom! Lil Rounds and Anoop Desai went home (oh darn...). Next week, the theme is Jazz week! Matt will pretty much kill at it, since that's a lot of what he sings at Monaco Bay (where he works). I am really looking forward to that...although I don't think that he will make it past the top 4, I am so excited to know someone on Idol! It's really cool even though it does make me kinda bias...And, even though I don't think that he will win, I have a feeling that he will get a record deal out of it...someone will pick him up. He is way too good to just let slip by. So, basically I know someone famous! Yay me lol...

I am not sure if I will post tomorrow or not it really just depends on how lazy (or not lazy) I feel...lol

I am completely freaking out right now!!!!

Today was a day of serious epic proportions...I won a signed picture of Kaleb Nation's book, Bran Hambric!! I am so totally excited right now, I seriously feel like I am either going to throw up or die...maybe even both...

Last night around 3 am EST, Kaleb's book cover was released to the pubic, and it is AMAZING!!! The link once again is www.branhambric.com. The new website and the new book trailer was also released last night. Today, since it was the day that all the Bran Hambric stuff was released he decided to have a blogtv and give away some crazy cool stuff. He did the blogtv at Melanie Payne's house (from M Squared www.youtube.com/user/ravenclawLDS89) with, obviously, Melanie. At all of his blogtv's he does twitter contests, which is exactly how it sounds, a contest via twitter. Also, during his blogtv's he gives away phone calls. So, first, Kaleb gave away a phone call to someone who's user name I cannot remember. He talked to that girl for about 5 minutes, which is how long his calls last.

Then, Melanie, decided that she wanted to give away a phone call too. At first we all wanted her to call Jackie aka TwilightGurle, who is very high up on Kaleb's friends list because she reminds him of his little sister (www.youtube.com/user/TwilightGurle). But, she ended up doing a twitter contest too. So, as I were entering I heard them saying that they had the person who won and I went back to the tab that blogtv was set up in. Melanie then announced the winner who happened to be my friend Rachael. I private messaged her and told her congrats and how jealous I was of her because she was going to talk to Melanie! They talked for about 20 minutes and after they were done talking she and I talked about how cool it was.

Melanie, at the beginning of the show, when Kaleb announced that he was giving away the very first signed picture of the cover of Bran Hambric, announced that she was giving away a poster of Hannah Montana on one side and Zac Effron on the other. Oh, and it was signed by both Melanie and Kaleb, so it was a lot cooler than it was before. I, of course, entered for it not for the pictures on the poster but for the signatures. I didn't win though because I am just not that lucky...I wasn't expecting to win. A girl named Alaetra won (pretty name but I was kinda jealous).

Then it was the moment that everyone in the room was waiting for, the Bran Hambric cover! In order to win, we had to type into twitter @kalebnation Bran Hambric...I entered about 2 or 3 times and that normally isn't enough to win, I didn't hear them say that they had a winner so I was still entering. I, then, heard Melanie say, "Can I announce the winner?" I am assuming that Kaleb nodded his head or something of that nature since I didn't hear him reply. Melanie, then, started to say MrsJasperHale.

I was sitting in the living room watching tv at the same time with my parents. When I heard her say my name I screamed at the top of my lungs. My parents looked at me like I was completely insane and asked me, "Did you win something?" I started to explain to them what I had won but since they have no idea who Kaleb is, they didn't understand why I was freaking out. I did the whole fanning myself thing with my hand, I was shaking uncontrolably, I couldn't type, and I, most certainly, couldn't think. Kaleb, then sent me a direct message asking for my address so that he could send out the picture. I had to send him an @reply because since my brain was going on the fritz couldn't remember how to send a stupid direct message. I felt completely stupid because as soon as he started to tell me through blogtv, my brain miracuously started to work again...all the time I was doing this I couldn't stop saying, "Oh my god. Oh my god, Oh my god," over and over again.

I still can't believe that I won...and I know that it won't fully set in until I am able to hold the proof in my hands. I can't wait until it comes in the mail; but, I keep thinking that I told him the wrong address, so, about every 5 minutes I check the direct message that I sent him. I am pretty sure that it's right...it looks right anyway. Lol. I am so incredibly happy that I won because I never win anything.

So, this is my BEDA day 18...DFTBA and please comment. I like comments they make me happy! =)

What? I'm actually posting a BEDA? NO WAY! lol

Okay, so I haven't posted a BEDA blog in about a week...go me! Basically, I am very lazy and although it may not seem very hard to post a measley blog once a day, I am just not that creative. So, this will count for every day that I haven't posted...

The last time I posted I was talking about how I entered the Ellen Degeneres biggest Twilighter contest. And, talking about the Twilight collage that I made. Even though you really can't see the pictures and quotes very well, there's a picture of it. It took me forever since everytime I thought I had enough pictures for it I kept coming up with more blank spots. But, I finally got it done at 3 am, and I think that it turned out pretty well!

So, today Maureen Johnson announced the BEDA buddies on her ning. I now actually have incentive to post a blog. Before it kind of seemed like a waste of time to post a blog because no one ever read them, but now I have people that will be reading them! Yay! Hi, to my BEDA buddies (Courtney, Geri, and Evie, I hope I got all of your names right...let me know if I didn't lol I'm not good with names).

Today, well, technically yesterday, I closed the auditions for my collab channel! I am so happy because that means no more watching auditions and everyone I have picked I won't have to change again! I am super excited to announce the members and to start the channel. It's going to be so much fun. I am pretty sure that the channel is going to be called PunchingWerewolves7 but not 100% sure yet. I will post it in a blog when I know for sure.

I think that's really all that happened since my last post besides camping out in Kaleb Nation's blogtv room for tomorrow night's blogtv! Those are always fun. And, the cover art for his book has been released...well, the majority of it has, he should be posting the rest of it anytime now! If you would care to check it out, go to http://www.branhambric.com/. There are also preview chapters that you can read. If you don't know who Kaleb is, he has a blog called Twilight Guy (http://www.twilightguy.com/) and he decided one year ago (April 16th, 2008) that he wanted to read the Twilight Saga to find out why so many people pretty much worships them. He goes through and reads each chapter of the books and then posts a blog about that chapter. He is currently on chapter 4 of Breaking Dawn, so he's almost done! It's going to be kind of sad once he finishes, even though I have only been reading his blogs since January and a lot of people have been reading it since last April.

He also does super amazing contests on Twilight Guy, blogtv, twitter, and youtube. One contest that is going on right now is he recently recieved, from Stephenie, signed copies of the box set of books. Each book is signed, the box that they come in, and the post cards that also come with it. He also recieved from Christian Serratos (aka Angela Weber in the Twilight movie) about a hundred signed photos of herself for future contests!

Well, that's pretty much all, maybe I will actually try to be better at posting, if not every day, then at least every other day...

As always, DFTBA, and much love!

Randomness....

I know I haven't been very good at this whole BEDA thing but I really have no time to do anything...
Well, since I am already typing this might as well turn it in to a BEDA post! So, today I didn't do much besides actually start AND finish my Twilight collage! I spent about 12 or more hours working on it. It looks amazing though! I also entered Ellen Degeneres' contest to find the biggest Twilighter. I took a picture of me with my twilight book and my Edward shirt in front of the poster.
I also finally got my hair dyed purple! And it looks amazing! I absolutely love it!
That's about it for today...maybe a more interesting one tomorrow...
DFTBA!

BEDA: Days 8,9,10

Sorry that I didn't post an actual blog for Day 8 and 9 but I didn't have anything to write about. I am a very boring person so not much goes on in my life. Yesterday was my little sister's birthday and so we went to Red Lobster for dinner, which was amazing! I also got my hair dye so my mom is going to do my hair tomorrow most likely. I'm really excited because I will finally have some random colour in my hair! Today I got accepted into the Eternal Original's role play group on myspace. I am really excited about that since it is pretty much the second coolest Twilight RP group on myspace! Well, that is basically it for today. Later yall! DFTBA!

BEDA: Day 7: American Idol

With today being Tuesday, if you live in America and know anything about anything you would know that Tuesday means American Idol! This season I actually know someone on Idol! Matt Giraud is a long time family friend. He is also my 8 month old baby sister's godfather. It is so amazing to know someone on Idol because we get to go out to Wild Bull (the sister bar to where Matt works, Monaco Bay) every Tuesday. At the watch party, we get to play American Idol bingo, which is simply having a piece of paper with different quotes that the jugdes are known for saying; so, it's extremely easy. Tonight we got a very special prize that might have a chance to win...Kelly Clarkson tickets!!! I really hope I win because I want to see her in concert so bad! I absolutely love her. I even got Tiffany and Alyssa to enter for it so if they won then they could give my the tickets sonce niether of them care for Kelly. I have a pretty good chance of winning; I entered myself, my sister, my parents, and Tiff and Lyss. So, I really hope that one of us is chosen. That's pretty much all for today. DFTBA

BEDA: Day 6: Sorry I'm late -_-

It is now 2 am on April 7th meaning that this blog is officially LATE! Really sorry about this but I was just having an extremely bad day and if you follow me on twitter than you already know this whole story. I am not going to go into any details because it's not really important and I have just given up on caring about it any more. The jist of it is that my dad is a jerk and I hate him. So, there you go. I don't really have much to talk about in this blog but then again what else is new. If you have any suggestions and/or requests let me know in the comments. I know that I keep promising a Twilight party blog but I haven't had time to do it just yet. Most likely tomorrow or Thursday since I will be at school pretty much all day. Wednesday may be another late blog day since I probably won't be online at all which really sucks because all of my friends are online and I need to talk to them all so I don't go insane. The reason I will be gone on Wednesday is because I will be home all day and really do not need to give yet another reason for my dad to chew my head off and bitch. That's pretty much all for today kids! DFTBA!

BEDA: Day 5: I really need to move out

I am not really sure how I should begin this blog but today has been shit so far. And that is really sad since it is only 2:36 and I woke up about an hour ago. First, off my father came in and started bitching at my sister for not cleaning, even though she was cleaning. He then went on to say that no is allowed to eat unless we clean first, so therefore if we want to eat three times a day then we have to clean three times a day. After awhile of him bitching my sister started crying and my father then said how he wished he never had children.

Honestly, I wish he never had children either. He is a shitty father, doesn't care about anyone except himself, and could care even less about doing anything. My father is an asshole, and will always be an asshole, there is no way around it.

My mom was going to divorse him about 2 years ago but then decided that she was going to wait for Bri to graduate from high school. But that was before she got pregnant. Now her plan is to wait until Kenzie graduates from high school. Kenzie is 8 months old. I really hate my mom for doing this because I don't what Kenzie going through the same shit that Bri and I had to go through. I believe that if you are a parent and in a shitty relationship then you need to get out for the kids sake, it shouldn't matter what the hell you think; the children need to come first.

What I think is hilarious about my father is that he eats maybe 6 or 7 times a day meaing that he should be cleaning 6 or 7 times a day...guess what? He doesn't. We are lucky if he cleans once a week. And, another great thing of his little "rule" is that parents are supposed to give their children three things, clothing, shelter, and food. Otherwise it is considered child abuse. I have never said this to anyone before but I really want to get it out because I am sick and tired of holding it in...I do honestly believe that my father abuses Bri, my mother, and myself. Not like physical abuse, but emotional and mental abuse. I believe this because whenever he is having a shitty day or something doesn't go exactly as he planned it to, he will bitch at us for usually something we had no control over...and it is usually aimed at me. I could type so many different times that I have been yelled at, put down, called stupid, anything but I am positive that it would be as long as 3 of yesterday's post, just that alone.

I really need to move out because living here I am seriously afraid that it will kill me one day. It is way too stressful for me here and I am really getting tired of it. I do all that I fucking can and the only reason why my dad bitches at us so much is because his mother (bless her soul, and I loved her but still) cleaned up after him his ENTIRE life. He never had to clean his room, take care of his dishes after he was done eating, do chores, nothing. His mother did everything for him. I am pretty sure that because of this reason that he looks down on women and thinks that they are the only ones that can do anything.

I am really sorry for the emoness of this blog but I really just needed to get it out. DFTBA

BEDA: Day 4: Shitty Time with Friends

As you all will know if you read my last post (sorry for the shortness of it I didn't want to type much since Ali was looking over my shoulder the entire time) that I went to my friend's house to stay the night. I was really fun hanging out with Tiffany and Alyssa but then Ali and her little brother Zach came over and all hell broke loose...well, for me at least. I am not really sure why I am friends with all of these people because we have basically none of the same interests. I like Twilight, they think it's a joke. They like manga, I think it's crap. They like video games, I like twitter. And, in this case opposites most certainly DO NOT attract. Well, except for Alyssa, I like her just fine.

When Ali and Zach first got there it was fine, Ali and I were playing with Renaldo (Tiffany's ferret) and Zach was playing video games with Alyssa. Alyssa left with Tiffany to go take Jacob home (one of Zach's friends that couldn't stay the night), that's when it started. With only Ali, Zach, and I at Alyssa's one-bedroom appartment, and I, being the only one who like Twilight, the Twilight bashing began. I have no idea why they started it maybe because I started talking about it, I don't know. All I did was say that I liked Twilight and was showing off my merchandise...that was it. I was not trying to get them to like Twilight and I was not trying to get them to talk about it...I just wanted it out there that I liked it so maybe they wouldn't bash it...well, so much for that plan. Ali started going all off about why Twilight sucked (vampires weren't supposed to sparkle, they weren't supposed to drink animal blood...). Zach then asked me if I read manga, I said no because it doesn't catch my interest. He immediately shot back with that's why you like Twilight then, because you haven't read and thing good. I'm sorry but no, I like Twilight because it gives me hope that one day I will find my "Edward" if you will, and that not all men are total douche bags. I like Twilight because it is a good read and Stephenie has a way of making you love her characters that very few authors can achieve.
I decided at this point that I didn't want to hear them bitching anymore so I got online and started to read The Puppet Master. I guess I shouldn't have because this is when Ali came down and tried distracting me with the fanfics that she likes and the ones that she had written. I didn't care since most of them were all manga crap and it just doesn't catch my interest. But, I let her try and distract me. She made me read a short Harry Potter one that I just kind of skimmed because I really didn't want to read anything but my Twilight fanfic. When I got done with the Harry Potter fanfic she tried to get me to play some random writing game and I was like I know that's my major and all but really I just don't care or want to for that matter. I went back to twitter and posted a new tweet...I don't remember what it said but I was really upset that Ali wouldn't leave so I could bitch about her. This is when she wrote the letter...

I love (fan) fictions. I love the heart-pounding action of a fight, or the gut-wrenching sorrowof a beloved character being killed. These emotions are neither faked or imitated. The impact of decisions are not lost on one, even just as a 3rd person veiwer.
However
There comes a time when one must put aside their books for awhile and live. To go outside and stare at the sky, imagining your own stories. To put a pencil to paper and write your thoughts. To go out and talk to people.
Even the most vivid story in the world cannot prepare one for the complexities of human interactions. Body language, tone, eyes, pattern of speech...
They can be described in a story, but only through experience can one learn to interact with people
Even if it is cutting back on the reading by 15 minutes, enough to drive to the nearest wal-mart and back. Humans are naturally social creatures, and denying yourself this part of life will destroy you slowly, no matter how many realites you can read yourself into.

Ok, first issue with this: what does it matter to her if I spend all of my free time reading? It's not her life...it's not hurting her any.
Second issue: I don't have any good enough friends that I can just call up at any time of the day and say "hey let's hang out." All of the friends that I do have either don't like me enough to do that or I don't know them well enough to hang out with.
Third and final issue: the reason why I read so much is so that I can have a sense of friends. This is also the reason why I am online so much...all of my close friends are online and therefore I cannot call them up and go hang out whenever I want to...they live in different states and even different countries. This is also why I love Twilight so much, it has introduced me to so many people that I would have never met if I hadn't read the beloved series. I would have never started watching Team Twilighter, and never met Emy and Katie. I would have never met B or Kim, I would have never experienced the thrill of watching a Kaleb Nation blogtv and finding out what his newest contest would consist of. I would have never started my own Twilight collab channel and therefore never met Kurtis, Jenna, Marta, Emily, Jessie, Nora, and all the others who auditioned or even thought about auditioning. I would have also never started my Twilight Family.
Even though Ali doesn't think that people should just sit on the computer and not have a life, I believe that I ahve a very enriched life and love all of the people in it. They have gotten me through so much and for that I am etternally grateful, I will never forget my Twilight friends and I hope to one day meet every one of them.
Sorry for the lengthiness of this post, it makes up for yesterday's lame one! Love everyone, DFTBA! <3

BEDA: Day 3: At Alyssa's

Day 3 has been fairly uneventful so far...right now I am sitting at my friend's house and just had pizza for dinner. This blog today is going to be pretty boring since I didn't really do much today. I will try to get my Twilight party blog up tomorrow but not completely sure about that. I might go back later and u[date this a little more but right now I am too tired to think of anything creative to write. So, DFTBA. <3

BEDA: Day 2: Fanfic Recommendation

So, day 2 is here and almost done with but I was reading fanfiction all day and was absolutely absorbed in it. It is seriously the best fanfiction I have ever read...well, it's the only fanfiction I have ever read! It is a Twilight fanfic and if you love the books, I totally recommend reading it. It's about this girl named Cammy who loves the Twilight Saga and has an aunt and uncle who just so happen to live in Forks, WA, the main headquaters of all the fictional action. Her aunt and uncle ask her to come stay in Forks for her junior year of high school to house sit for them since they are away quite a bit. She decides that it would be a good experience to stay there so she could learn how to live by and take care of herself...not to mention that she would be able to see the actual place that Stephenie based the book series on. Her first day of school seemed to be going normally until she got to Engilsh. It just so happens that she has a class with Jasper Hale...yes, the real Jasper! She faints and has to be taken to the hospital, here she meets Carlisle. She begins to realize that the characters that she had only thought were fictional actually existed! The next day at school she is texting her best friend, Donna, who still lives in Southern California and got her to read the Twilight books, about the previous day's activities. Donna began asking her what Twilight was and why Cammy had thought she had read it, Donna had never heard of the beloved series. When Cammy got home she immediately searched for all things Twilight...Stephenie Meyer, Edward Cullen, even Twilight itself, but nothing. It seems as though the it has disappeared completely. Cammy, however, still has her copy of the books (Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse) and so now has the responsiblity to make sure that everything goes as planned in the story. But, all is not as easy as it seems.

That is all that I am going to tell you about the fanfic because I don't want to give any key information out to those who would like to read this and not be spoiled. I am completely in love with this story and have already gotten two others hooked on it (Ashley from Team Twilighter and my friend Kim). The link is hooked onto the title! Enjoy!

<3 Josie much love! DFTBA!

BEDA: Day 1

Hey everyone! If you don't already know, BEDA stands for Blog Every Day in April. Maureen Johnson started it and I decided that I would try it also.

Not much is going on today, other than the fact that it is April 1st aka April Fools Day, which just happens to be my least favourite day of the year. I hate it because I am the most gulliable person ever. Although I tend to steer away from trusting what anyone says on this day. I am very glad that I don't have school on Wednesdays because I don't have to worry about being pranked. The only prank that I have encountered today was that of our beloved Youtube. The creators of Youtube decided that it would be fun to make all of the videos in your subscription box to be upsidedown when you clicked on them to view. It sucks!

In my life, I have had a pretty good time since my last post. I have officially named my collab channel...Twerdfighters! I thought of this a few nights ago while laying in bed around 2 am not being able to sleep. It stands for Twilight Nerdfighters! I ablsolutely love the vlogbrothers so I am extremely glad that I thought of this name for my channel. Not much else has happened since my last post. Until next time, DFTBA! <3 you guys! Josie

Nothing really interesting...

Sorry I haven't posted in forever and a day but nothing to awfully exciting has happened lately. The only things that would be worth mentioning would be Matt killed last night on Idol so there is NO way he is going home tonight, I am starting yet another collab, and while watching the news last night I saw a commercial for the Allegan County Fair and Kelly Clarkson is performing and I might get to go.
Okay, so, I guess that actually there were a few things that happened! The other collab that I am starting is going to be a role playing collab. Emy from Team Twilighter and I are working on it together. Emy is also currently working on a background for the channel, which I am super excited about since I am challenged in that area of expertice and Emy's personal channel (EmyLovableCullen) has a super cool background that she also made! (As of last March 29th, the background is now up and is AMAZING! Thanks Emy <3) Basically, we're having people audition for different positions and then we will vlog how we fell that the character would do it. We are going to start out with how everyone felt about Bella moving to Forks and becoming the center of attention. Emy is going to be Rosalie and I am most likely going to be Jessica. In order to get to this youtube page click the title of this blog and it should take you there...at least that's what they tell me! lol
The Kelly Clarkson thing I am so excited about! She is going to be at the ACF on September 12th, 2009. I want to go so incredibly bad, I have wanted to see her in concert since she won Idol, and have yet to have a chance to. I really hope that everything works out because my dad said that he may be able to get tickets...I really hope that I can go with a friend though because it would be that much more fun if I could go with someone who actually likes Kelly, too. I also hope that she will do autographs because then I can get my CD signed and maybe get a little something for Michael Buckley of the What the Buck show. He loves Kelly so that would be super awesome if I could get him an autograph and send it to him!
OME I can't believe I forgot to tell you about the Twilight Party!! I think I'll do that in another blog though because this one is already fairly lengthy...pretty good for nothing cool happening haha. (EDIT April 2nd: Sorry for not having that blog up yet because I keep forgetting to do it! lol)
DFTBA

Sometimes I really wish....

Sometimes I really wish that I had never read Twilight and gotten so obsessed with it because I am about to go broke with all the stuff I want to buy. If you want to know just what I mean, here is the list and cost of everything that I want (well, its not even everything):

Twilight Saga Box Set (from Costco): $46.99
Ulitmate Collector's Edition DVD set (from Costco): $59.99
Border's Special Edition DVD: $29.99
Twilight Collector's Edition (from Walmart): $15.00
Director's Notebook (from Border's): $12.59
Twilight 18 month Calender (from Border's): $16.99
Edward door length poster (from Blockbuster): $10.00
Twilight Board Game (from Walmart): $14.97

Added all together for a grand total of $201.54. And that doesn't include everything that I have already bought...I have already spent around $100 (including twilight bracelets, the Hot Topic DVD, stickers, candy, a button, and a keychain). It's really starting to get bad...for my birthday all I am going to ask for is Twilight stuff. So, maybe my family can help me out a little bit. I really wish that my birthday was closer though, not in August and not so close to my baby sister, so I am probably going to get shit again this year because my parents are going to spend all their money on the baby when she doesn't even understand what's going on....
I am planning on getting the Director's Notebook on Friday and maybe the calender, not sure yet. That's all for now, DFTBA!
<3 Josie

Boredum can kill

I decided that I was going to just ramble on today about nothing in particular because I got to school early today (I got here at 9 am...my class isn't until 2 pm) and I am bored out of my mind...so, here it goes.

I think that I have mentioned my collab channel before (I think in my first post?) well, that is still going very slowly but I may have about 4 spots filled so that's good I only need 3 more. On my channel so far there is Jenna and I am probably going to choose Marta because she seems pretty awesome and Nora has yet to audition but I think I will choose her (she lives in Forks! How awesome is that??). So, if on the off chance you are reading this and love Twilight and would like to be on a collab please go check out my channel www.youtube.com/user/MrsJasperHale08 it will be greatly appreciated!

Tonight I am going to an American Idol watch party because I live in Kalamazoo and if you watch Idol then you woudl know that Matt Giraud is from Kalamazoo, too. I am really excited that Matt made it to the show (I know him, he is actually my baby sister's godfather!) and it's making living in Michigan that much more bareable.

I decided that I really need to move out of my house because I am starting (well i have been for awhile) to get tired of my parents (especially my dad) bitching at me for every little thing. My dad has a very short temper and if one little thing does not go exactly the way he wants it to then he will yell at whoever the next one he sees...which is usually me. I am way too stressed already and can't deal with it anymore. I have two friends that have said that I can move in with them so I have a place to go but I need a job first because I'm not the kinda of person that is just going to move in with someone and expect them to pay my part of the rent until I find a job. I know myself if I did that I wouldn't try very hard to get a job.

Well, that is it for my random rant, until next time DFTBA and <3>

Texting Lies

Yesterday I was supposed to go to a movie with my "best friend" (the girl mentioned in the last post) and I wasn't all that excited about it. But, luckily she never told me anything about it and didn't text me back until today (thank god). In this text message she asked me if I wanted to spend the night on Friday. I happily replied back with I can't Im going to the hot topic dvd party for twilight. I'm almsot positive that when I go back to check my cell there will be a text from her saying something along the lines of "oh ok. can I go?" Which I will happily lie and say I was invited to go by someone else. Just because I would rather not hang out with her right now. It gives her too many chances to bitch.
Sorry for the shortness of this post (not like anyone is actually reading this haha) I just really wanted to post something and not much is going on today besides me skipping my class again. I know that I shouldn't but I just hate my Mon/Wed class, I have a D in it which makes it all the more fun. Well, until next time, DFTBA!

Why?

I have recently come to realization that the guy I didn't think I had any feelings toward, I am in love with...well, at least I think I am.
Basically, I used to have a crush on this guy that I met about 6 years ago online. But, I soon noticed that I really didn't feel that way...he was more of a big brother to me; so, I let it drop. Over the past few months, however, I have gone back to where I thought I was 6 years ago. It really sucks though because I have NO idea how he feels...he tends to give me mixed signals. For example, one second he will be flirtling with me, calling me gorgeous, asking me about dating (like what my perfect date would be, what I would like to get on a date, like flowers or such) but then the next minute he will be calling me his "sister" and treating me like a little sister.
The whole feelings thing didn't come back until my best friend began dating him around Christmas last year. It only goes to prove the you don't what you have until it's gone. Since then, like about two weeks ago they broke up mainly because of me, but it was also because of her. Basically, she cheated on him and lied about it.
The whole story behind this is that the people that she usually babysits for called me up the day after Valentine's Day and asked me to babysit. I thought this was really weird because they always have her babysit. I agreed and they came to pick me up, while in the car, Darin, asked me what I thought about her boyfriend and by this time I thought that she and my "brother" had already broken up because she had cheated on him before and I told him, yet again she lied to him. So, I told Darin that I didn't know that she had a boyfriend and he said that it was the reason why I was babysiting instead of her, she wanted to hang out with him. Once I got home from babysiting I immediatly told him. She soon after got online and he talked to her about it. She then IMs me and starts bitching at me for telling him false information. He finally decided that he had enough of it and broke up with her.
So, now he keeps treating me like he likes me but I don't really know because, once again, of the mixed signals. Honestly, I can see me marrying him later in life just because we are so close and have been "together" for 6 years. I guess I will just have to wait and see how everything works out in the end. Until next time, DFTBA.

Honesty

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:
13. Looks:

WOULD YOU:
14. Be my friend?
15. Keep a secret if I told you one?
16. Hold my hand?
17. Take a bullet for me?
18. Keep in touch with me if you went somewhere?
19. Try and solve my problems?
20. Love me?
21. Date me?
22. Sing/dance with me?

HAVE YOU EVER:
23. Lied to make me feel better?
24. Wanted to kiss me?
25. Wanted to kill me?
26. Made me cry?
27. Kept something important from me?
28. Thought I was annoying?

MORE:
29. Who are you?
30. Are we close?
31. Have you ever wanted to date me?
32. Have you ever liked/loved me?
33. When did we first meet?
34. Describe me in two words:
35. What was your first impression of me?
36. Do you still think the same?
37. What reminds you of me?
38. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
39. How well do you know me?
40. When's the last time you saw me?
41. When's the next time you want to see me?
42. Ever wanted to tell me something?
43. What song do you think would describe me best?
44. Are you gonna post this in yours to see what I say about you?

Frustration

My parents decided that they were going to go out tonight and of course, my 14 year old sister, Bri, decided that she didn't want to babysit with me (like she ever does) and go out with her friends. So, once again I get stuck by myself with babysiting duty... For those of you who don't know I have a 7 month old baby sister named Mackenzie and, don't get me wrong I love her to death, but I have homework and things that I need to get done. Bri never helps out with the baby because she "has homework," she doesn't even do her homework she just shoves Kenzie off to everyone else and goes to sit in her room and pretend like she's doing it. It pisses me off faster than anything.

For example, today I was finishing eating lunch and my dad and Bri had just gotten home from my grandpa's house. My dad had Bri take Kenzie to feed her but Bri didn't want to and yet again used the homework excuse and put Kenzie in bed. She came over to turn the moniter on that was on the table next to me. When she got over to me I said, "I hope you realize that she isn't going to go to sleep." She shot back with, "I know but it's worth a shot." I knew for a fact that Kenzie wasn't going to go to sleep but does she listen to me of course not, that would be just way too easy. About 5 minutes later, lo and behold, Kenzie is fussing in her room waiting for someone to come get her. Bri comes back out of her room and I told her to go get her since she was the one that put her in there in the first place. She then starts yelling at me saying that she has to do her homework, but really if she was doing her homework she wouldn't be failing almost all of her classes. I then told her that the world doesn't revolve around her and that I, too, have homework but no one seems to care about that even though I, being a college student, have a lot more homework than a high school freshman...trust me I know, I was there.

So, Bri got to go out with her friends even though her half of the room (we have to share a room ugh) is not clean, she's failing classes and doesn't have any clean clothes so she had to steal some of my mom's clothes. I just think it's so rediculous that she gets to do whatever she wants without having to do anything in return and yet I do everything I'm told and get good grades and yet I never get to do anything. I just really need to get out of my house I am way too stressed out and can't deal with it anymore...but unfortunetly I don't have good enough friends that will room with me and I don't have enough money to live by myself.

Sorry for my bitchiness but that is the main reason why I have this, is so I can get all my bitchiness out and not have to wait to find someone that will listen to it. Remember, DFTBA!

First Blog

Hey everyone! This is my first blog and I wanted to finally make one of these mainly because I'm bored and need something to preoccupy me. So, being my first blog I will start off telling you a little about myself. My name is Josie, I'm 18 years old, I share a birthday with Steve Carrell, Madonna, and Vanessa Carlton (August 16th), and I am a college freshman. At college, I am studying to be a writer, my major is creative writing, and my goal is to move to LA one day and write screenplays. I have always had a love of writing but it took me until last summer to decide that it was what I wanted to do with my life...until then I wanted to be a veterinarian (but I don't like science and it takes A LOT of science lol). When I am not in school I love to read, write, watch and make youtube videos, hang with my friends, and go shopping. I also love to be random! Some of my favourite books are Harry Potter, Twilight, Inkheart, The A-list, Gossip Girl, and many more that don't come to mind at the moment.

Twilight quickly became the love of my life and I can easily call myself obsessed! I started reading the series on June 10, 2008, I discovered the series when the movie had been anounced and I wanted to read the series before I saw the movie, after the first chapter I was completely hooked! I love to talk about anything Twilight and most of my friends don't like it so it's hard to actually get to do it...that is why I am starting a Twilight collab channel on youtube. The channel is being called either TwitasticTwitubers, TwitasticFanpires, or TwitasticTwerds...not sure yet. I got the idea to do this from another Twilight collab, Team Twilighter. I absolutely love them and I have become really close with Katie (Tuesday) and Emy (Thursday) on the channel. They are two of the nicest people and I love talking to them. I saw the Twilight movie 7 times in theaters, and am going to the Hot Topic release party with one of my friends. I really can't wait for that, it's going to be a blast!

I really hope that I didn't bore y'all too much and I promise that these will get better...eventually! So, until next time, DFTBA!